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| The title really speaks for itself. School has taken over my life. It's break time, though, so I'm thinking about starting back up. What do you guys think? I'll probably post a lot of random things in the next couple of weeks, just to keep track of quotes that I like (the whole reason why I started this site in the first place).
Even though I haven't updated in forev, I still love coming on here and reading all of my subscriptions' updates :) Ah! If y'all haven't already, check out their sites. They are wonderful!
I hope you're having a great break :) Let me know if you want more updates.
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| Hello :) 5 more days of summer = 5 more days until senior year. I'm sad. My schedule's looking pretty good this year though!
1. French 3
2. AP Gov/Econ
3. Physics
4. Yearbook (editor! yay!)
6. AP Psychology
7. AP Literature Ah well...hope the rest of your summer is amazing, or if it's over, I hope it was amazing. Here's the update. :) 
You learn a lot when you go to college. You learn that pulling an all-nighter means staying up all night to study for a test you will then sleep through. You learn to appreciate the taste of beer-the cheapest of all alcoholic beverages. You learn that you can roll out of bed 10 minutes before class and go to class looking like shit-and no one will notice or care. You learn you really can do things for yourself without your parents looking over your shoulder--but you also learn you never realized how nice it was to have them there, just in case. More than anything, however, you learn how much your friends really mean to you. College friends come to mean a lot to you, but they can never compare to your friends from home. Your friends from home teach you the meaning of friendship during your college years. Because you are apart from them you tend to express your feelings more --- you learn how much these people truly affect your life.. 
Sometimes we become attached to what’s familiar, and sometimes we hold on to things that are safe and predictable, even if they are bad for us. 
sometimes all i really want to do is sit beside you. i want to watch cheesy and crappy movies with you, and we will laugh at them together. i want to plan things with you, things we’ll never do, but for some reason just planning them with you is fine with me. i want to talk to you about everything and anything. i want to goof around with you and make jokes that aren’t funny, but we’ll laugh nonetheless. i just want to fall in love with you over and over and maybe at one point we’ll get tired of each other, but until then, i want you, and just you. 
You will never become who you want to be if you keep blaming everyone else for who you are. 
The best type of miracle a friendship can make is being able to grow up without growing apart. 
Most people are other people, their thoughts are someone else's opinions, their lives are a mimicry, their passions a quotation.
I guess we are who we are for a lot of reasons & maybe we'll never know most of them. But even if we don't have the power to choose where we come from, we can still choose where we go from there. 
everything changes. everyday, every hour, every minute, every second. it’s unavoidable; it’s necessary. clinging to what used-to-be is the farthest thing from healthy. moving on, adapting, that is the key to surviving the day to day changes that have the tendency to change everything. 
There is only one page left to write on. I will fill it with words of only one syllable. I love. I have loved. I will love. 
So maybe it doesnt really matter if you wear your heart on your sleeve or lock it up in a box away from the world because in the end, everyone gets hurt. Comments are much appreciated. :) | | |
| FINISHED IT! love love loved it. so excited to see Julia Roberts in the movie this weekend! :) My family and I rescued our 4th cat from the SPCA today. He's a little odd looking because he was abused, but still completely adorable :) How people can abuse animals is beyond me. Anyway, school starts soon. I should be more excited for senior year, but I <3 highschool and don't want it to end! As I said last time, every quote in this update is from the book Eat, Pray, Love by Elizabeth Gilbert. They're just random lines and excerpts that I liked while reading, so if you like them, then I'll do more when I read different books. Let me know :)
Looking for Truth is not some kind of spazzy, free-for-all, not even during this, the great age of the spazzy free-for-all.
Let it be sufficient to say that, on this night, he was still my lighthouse and my albatross in equal measure. The only thing more unthinkable than leaving was staying; the only thing more impossible than staying was leaving. I didn't want to destroy anything or anybody.
What I said to god through my gasping sobs was something like this: "Hello God. How are you? I'm Liz. It's nice to meet you." That's right - I was speaking to the creator of the universe as though we'd just been introduced at a cocktail party. But we work with what we know in this life, and these are the words I always use at the beginning of a relationship.
In desperate love, it's always like this, isn't it? In desperate love, we always invent the characters of our partners, demanding they be what we need of them, and then feeling devastated when they refuse to perform the role we created in the first place.
God never slams a door in your face without opening a box of Girlscout Cookies!
Your treasure – your perfection – is within you already. But to claim it, you must leave the busy commotion of the mind and abandon the desires of the ego and enter into the silence of the heart.
Merely, this world is chaotic, bringing changes to us all that nobody could have anticipated. One must always be prepared for rituous and endless waves of transformation.
It changed the progression of my life - almost like one of those crazy astronomical super-events when a planet flips over in outer space for no reason whatsoever. Something like that. What happened was that I started to pray. You know - like, to God.
It is better to live your own destiny imperfectly than to live an imitation of somebody else's life with perfection.
In a world of disorder and disaster and fraud, sometimes only beauty can be trusted. Only artistic excellence is incorruptible.
People follow different paths, straight or crooked, according to their temparment, depending on which they consider best, or most appropriate – and all reach You, just as rivers enter the ocean.
The appreciation of pleasure can be an anchor of one's humanity.
You were given life; it is your duty (and also your entitlement as a human being) to find something beautiful within life, no matter how slight.
You are, after all, what you think. Your emotions are the slaves to your thoughts, and you are the slave to your emotions.
What will I be able to do tomorrow that I cannot yet do today?
There’s a reason we refer to “leaps of faith” – because the decision to consent to any notion of divinity is a mighty jump from the rational over to the unknowable, and I don’t care how diligently scholars of every religion will try to sit you down with their stacks of books and prove to you through scripture that their faith is indeed rational; it isn’t. If faith were rational, it wouldn’t be – by definition – faith. Faith is belief in what you cannot see or prove or touch. Faith is walking face-first and full-speed into the dark.
Prayer is a relationship; half the job is yours.
People universally tend to think that happiness is a stroke of luck, something that will maybe descend upon you like fine weather if you’re fortunate enough. But that’s not happiness works. Happiness is the consequence of personal effort. You fight for it, strive for it, insist upon it, and sometimes even travel around the world looking for it. You have to participate relentlessly in the manifestations of your own blessings. And once you have achieved a state of happiness, you must never become lax about maintaining it, you must make a mighty effort to keep swimming upward into that happiness forever, to stay afloat on top of it.
Listen to me. Someday you’re gonna look back on this moment of your life as such a sweet time of grieving. You’ll see that you were in mourning and your heart was broken, but your life was changing and you were in the best possible place in the world for it – in a beautiful place, surrounded by grace. Take this time, every minute of it. Let things work themselves out here.
See, now that’s your problem. You’re wishin’ too much, baby. You gotta stop wearing your wishbone where your backbone outta be.
As far as we know, we are the only species on the planet who have been given the gift – or curse, perhaps – of awareness about our own mortality. Everything here eventually dies; we’re just the lucky ones who get to think about this fact every day. How are you going to cope with this information?
I have searched frantically for contentment for so many years in so many ways, and all these acquisitions and accomplishments – they run you down in the end. Life, if you keep chasing it so hard, will drive you to death. Time – when pursued like a bandit – will behave like one; always remaining one country or one room ahead of you, changing its name and hair color to elude you, slipping out the back door of the motel just as you’re banging through the lobby with your newest search warrant, leaving only a burning cigarette in the ashtray to taunt you. At some point you have to stop because it won’t. You have to admit that you can’t catch it. That you’re not supposed to catch it. At some point, you gotta let go and sit still and allow contentment to come to you.
When the karma of a relationship is done, only love remains. It’s safe. Let go.
To lose balance sometimes for love is part of living a balanced life.
With all your heart, forgive him, FORGIVE YOURSELF, and let him go.
When the past has passed from you at last, let go. Then begin the rest of your life with great joy.
Most of us, even if only for two minutes in our lives, have experienced at some time or another an inexplicable and random sense of complete bliss, unrelated to anything that was happening in the outside world. One instant, you’re just a regular Joe, schlepping through your mundane life, and then suddenly – what is this? – nothing has changed, yet you feel swollen with wonder, overflowing with bliss. Everything – for no reason whatsoever – is perfect.
In the end, though, maybe we must all give up trying to pay back the people in this world who sustain our lives. In the end, maybe it’s wiser to surrender before the miraculous scope of human generosity and to just keep saying thank you, forever and sincerely, for as long as we have voices.
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| HI! Ahhhh I'm so so sorry that I haven't updated in so long! On my trips I visited a few colleges, and let me just say that UCSB is beautiful. :) I love it! Not much else is going on with me...except that I'm reading Eat Pray Love right now and it's really cute. I've been marking quotes that I like throughout the book, so when I finish (which will most likely be this week), there will be a giant update with all of those. :) Pretty Little Liars is INSANE. Can we please just find out who A is now?!? Have you read the books? Are they any good? Let me know. :) And also, I'm love love loving Big Brother this season! <3 Okay, this update is definitely overdue, so enough of my rambling! This one's not going to have many quotes...since the next will have so many. Enjoy! :)
There is an inner beauty about a woman who believes in herself, who knows she is capable of anything she puts her mind to. there is a beauty in the strength and determination of a woman who follows her own path, who isn't thrown off by obstacles along the way. there is a beauty about a woman whose confidence comes from experiences; who knows she can fall, pick herself up, and go on.
"Four years ago, I was just a guy who had a crush on a girl, who had a boyfriend. And I had to do the hardest thing that I've ever had to do, which was just to... wait. Don't get me wrong, I flirted with her. Pam, I can now admit in front of friends and family, that I do know how to make a photocopy. Didn't need your help that many times. And, uh, do you remember how long it took you to teach me how to drive stick? 've been driving stick since high school, so... For a really long time that's all I had. Little moments with a girl who saw me as a friend. And, a lot of people told me I was crazy to wait this long for a date with a girl I work with but I think, even then I knew that... I was waiting for my wife." - The Office
Sometimes I think we waste our words, and we waste our moments, and we don't take the time to say the things that are in our hearts when we have the chance.
I can’t promise to fix all your problems but I can promise you won’t have to face them alone.
There's a big difference between who we love, who we settle for, and who we're meant for.
It's those moments when you drive around in a car full of people you love around a town too small for you. Where you gasp for breath between each laugh. It's those moments where you get high off of just breathing in so deep, you feel your lungs getting cold. For a second, that split second, you don't care. You don't care about school, about parents, about money, about rules or broken hearts. Who you care about are the people sitting next to you. Yeah, the ones who make you feel invincible, even at your weakest points.
I'm finally happy and I can say that I'm over you. This is really important for me, considering it's basically a year since we've become friends. I mean don't get me wrong I can basically say I've loved every day of that but I'm happy because I feel like a whole weight has been lifted off of me. I can go through my classes without thinking of you, I can go through the halls without looking for your face. I think seeing you with this other girl is the final reality check for me. I mean I can finally understand that if you wanted to be with me, you could have, and you chose her. And it's okay with me. You're a great friend to me, I still know I have you there whenever I need you but I know I can be happy without you. I guess I could thank your girl for this closure but really I wanna thank God. Thank God for giving me the strength to stop complaining and live my life.
The older you get the more you realize that it’s less important to have more friends and more important to have real ones.
There is no person in the world who is made to handle every punch that’s thrown at them. We aren’t made that way. In fact, we’re made to get mad, upset, sad, be hurt, stumble and fall. We aren’t supposed to be able to handle everything, but that’s what makes us stronger in the end, by learning from the things that hurt us most.
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| Hi hi hi! I've been out of town and tonight is my only night home until Sunday, so here's a big update for you while i'm gone :) I should be packing, but instead, I'm going to watch the Pretty Little Liars and Big Brother episodes that I've missed. YAY! Comments and subscriptions? Thanks so much for all the feedback! :)
Life will break you. Nobody can protect you from that, and living alone won’t either, for solitude will also break you with its yearning. You have to love. You have to feel. It is the reason you are here on earth. You are here to risk your heart. You are here to be swallowed up. And when it happens that you are broken, or betrayed, or left, or hurt, or death brushes near, let yourself sit by an apple tree and listen to the apples falling all around you in heaps, wasting their sweetness. Tell yourself you tasted as many as you could.
Sometimes, you forgive people simply because you still want them in your life.
Don't rely on someone else for your happiness and self worth. Only you can be responsible for that. If you can't love and respect yourself, no one else will be able to make that happen. Accept who you are completely, the good and the bad, and make changes as you see it, not because you think someone else wants you to be different.
One of the worst feelings in the world is having to doubt something you thought was unquestionable.
Just because the road ahead is long, is no reason to slow down. Just because there is much work to be done, is no reason to get discouraged. It is a reason to get started, to grow, to find new ways, to reach within yourself and discover strength, commitment, determination, discipline.
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It's funny how you can be face to face with someone and yet it feels as though you're on the other side of the world from them. They haven't actually gone anywhere, but they might as well have. It's one of the worst feelings to become acquainted with: to miss someone who's literally right there.
You know that moment you feel when you wake up and realize you have more time to sleep? Or, when you accidentally overhear someone say something nice about you? Or when you see someone you like and your heart races? Or even when you reach a goal you set for yourself? Now, remember what that feels like - and next time you're upset, or sad, or crying - think about that feeling.
I'm sorry I'm not who you thought I was, but what's happened is in the past, and all I can do is try to change. If you can't accept that, then you're not who I thought you were.
Time is too slow for those who wait, too swift for those who fear, too long for those who grieve, too short for those who rejoice, but for those who love, time is eternity.
It’s amazing the things you realize when you lose someone. You get mad at yourself for not saying the things you could have said a million times. You take for granted the days you spent doing nothing when you could have been with them. Anyone can be taken, at any point in our lives, but we always wait until they’re gone to say the things we never had the courage to say.
I'm the girl who's never been given a chance, the girls who's always been single, who's always had a crush on a guy that didn't care. I'm the girl who hides her feelings, the girl who doesn't know how to flirt, who's always lying when the tears are falling. I'mt he girl who wonders what's wrong with her, the girl who would change for him, who's always thinking about what could have been.
[©apatheticaspirations]
Let's face it, we've changed.. we've all changed. Somewhere betweensummer ending and school starting, we've all gone in our own directions. Hearts were broken, friendships diminished, new lovesstarted and new people came into our lives. We no longer spend all our time together in our circle of friends, we no longer talk for hours about nothing at all. We've changed.. some for the better and some for theworse. Some of us are finding love while others are trying to let go. Even though we've changed, we all know that even though we're all finding our own place in the world that when we find out love, when we let go of a love, when the tears fall or happy smiles spread across our face.. we'll come to each other because no matter where this crazy world takes us and no matter what happens nothing will change so much that we're not all best friends forever.
At the end of the day, when it comes down to it, all we really want is to be close to somebody. So this thing, where we all keep our distance and pretend not to care about each other, is usually a load of bull. So we pick and choose who we want to remain close to, and once we’ve chosen those people, we tend to stick close by. No matter how much we hurt them, the people that are still with you at the end of the day- those are the ones worth keeping. And sure, sometimes close can be too close. But sometimes, that invasion of personal space, it can be exactly what you need.
My heart longs to tell you how I feel towards you. I wish I could tell you just how much you have touched me. Just how much you have taught me. Just how much you’ve made me happy. Just how when you hold me, my body tingles. Just how when you smile at me, it touches my heart in such a way that no one else can ever come close to. Just how the way you love me makes me want to be a better person. Just the way I want nothing more than to be able to hold you everyday of my life, and how that alone would be enough. But, I can’t tell you all these; the way I truly feel them, because there aren’t enough words in this world that can truly explain just how I love you.
You can really tell a lot about a person from their taste in music. What pushes them through the hard times, what makes them jump and dance and what makes tears come to their eyes. You just have to hear what they do.
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